Note: I wrote this on June 1, 2017. But I never posted it. I decided it’s worth sharing even though it is now July 20, 2017.
This is from my devotions journal that I wrote on Wednesday morning. I’m not sure it will make much sense, but I felt compelled to put it in writing anyway. Tuesday was one of those days when it’s tough to be a Mom. Tough Mom days do not seem to be confined to kids living under your rough. I’m learning that praying is a difficult kind of parenting…but necessary…just as much as wandering down the hall to a help a sick child in the middle of the night! You have to do it!
Blessed be the Lord, Who has not given us as prey to their teeth.
Our soul has escaped as a bird from the snare of the fowlers; the snare is broken and we have escaped.
Our help is in the name of the Lord Who made heaven and earth.
Today is the day after yesterday-a tough day. My old enemy fear and worry were at work and I probably didn’t even recognize it. My Devotions yesterday and today were about dealing with temptation. I wanted to blow them off-after all…”I don’t smoke, cuss, drink, or chew, and I don’t go with those who do!” But so subtle is fear and worry which lead me to doubt. I felt I had spent the the day in prayer, even a couple of nights, for Ben and Andrea’s house closing and Wesley’s move to FL. The deal fell though on their house- again! I have been struggling with God ever since. WHY? I trusted You. I totally believed you were able & would complete it! Why did You not come through?
These questions I cannot answer. But what I know to be true is God is MY help! IS!! I cannot answer for the timing, the delays, the circumstances, the things I do not see. I often heard a voice in my prayers of pleading that reminded me “I’m not a magic rabbits foot.” And so I return to what I know to be true about God-
He is Sovereign-and I trust His Sovereignty!
He is Faithful
He is True
He is Good
He is Gracious
He will Provide
He is full of Love
I guess I have temptations a plenty but focusing on Him chases doubt and worry away!
I’m thankful to have spent a much more peaceful day yesterday and today!